Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Hi friends,

Thank you very much for all the help, prayers and the love that you've given to my wife. From the very start of her battle with cancer, all of you were there for her, and we really really appreciate your help and sacrifices.

There are too many of you to mention here, I'll just try generalize some, you might belong to one or several groups that I'm going to mention.

Dra. Charity Viado-Gorospe - her oncologist, a friend and a big sister to her. Tere really admires and loves dra. not only because she really takes care of her during those trying times, but because of her kind heart...

And to other doctors who really tried giving her a sound advice medically...

BIT 1997 - this our batch in college from PUP, they all do help one way or another. Tere don't expect them to do as much but they actually did, and more...

Friends from her elementary and high school days...

Her close friends from college, I don't have to enumerate you all, you know by heart who you are that includes the xmen.

Close friends who are working in other countries as well.

Kumares and kumpares, ninong and ninang....

Friends from tsikot.com forums.

Her relatives... too many to mention here... but they know who they are, who helped a lot emotionally and financially.

She also wanna thank those people who touched her life, our lives... ate Brenda who became close to Tere, her "neighbor" in 415D ward section in St. Lukes...

Dra Gorospe's trusted assistants, phine and gina...

And to other patients of Dra Gorospe as well...

Redmap family .. I want to thank sir Joel specially for giving theresa a chance to work and show what she can really do, the extended help you gave to her. Thank you at hindi mo pinabayaan si theresa. And to all her officemates, she really became close to most of them. At sa mga alaga nya...

ACS family! to bossing Francis from accepting me sa work and who really initiated and extended the financial help, sa mga naging kaclose ko, naiyakan ko...

To our Voxtron family... an extension of our family since we were both employed here. Sir Frank, ate Sonnie, Jurgen, dennis and cris to name a few... Sir Frank, usap na lang po tayo kung panu ko mababayaran :)

PCSO! (parang advertisement to ah but its true)

Nurses and doctors from Delos santos...

Her family and mine as well...

People that we don't know personally but still extended their helping hands...

People na nandun ung presence nung na tinatry ng mga doctors na irevive sya at mga taong nandun mismo sa hospital nung nagpahinga na sya ng tuluyan.

To all those people na nakiramay at nakidalamhati.

At sa mga readers ni tere, at sa mga hindi ko nabanggit, pasensya na ha, i know na maraming nagmamahal sa kanya and all I can do is thank and pray for you.

Thank you and God Bless you all.

Tere, I wanna thank you for being there for me, I love you so much and I know alam mo naman kung gaano kita kamahal. Di ba pag tinatanong mo ako, kung mahal kita, sinasabi ko hindi, and then may karugtong na salita yun, hindi, kasi mahal na mahal na mahal kita. We've been through so much, but I will cherish every moment of it. Simula ng maging tayo, for a couple of years or so we never really had a fight, minsan di ba, tayo pa nagwish na sana minsan magaway naman tayo para malaman natin yung feeling... ayan tuloy kahit panu meron tayong tampuhan. :) but no regrets because most of them are petty things. Baka maparami kwento ko dito, pasasalamat lang sana ito sa yo eh.

Thank you for being so understanding, so kind, so brave, ang daming so eh...sama mo na rin yung so kwela! Nothings gonna change my love for you! (you oughta know by now how much i love you parang kanta ba... )

You're my baby, sweetheart, love, labs, babe, babes, etc... dami kasi nating naging tawagan eh.

Actually marami pa akong gustong sabihin dito, kaya lang baka humaba masyado, dyahe. Maybe next time, ako na magbablog dito since she actually named this as perez-delavin blog.

Lord God, thank you for giving me theresa, as my wife, my best friend, my buddy, my angel... from the very bottom of my heart... Thank you., and thank you Jesus.

Tere, you will always be my baby, you're my angel... until we meet again.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Pins and Needles

Love is All Around - by Wet Wet Wet

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
Numbness all around me
And so the feeling grows…


Haller Haller Haller!!!

Its been quite a while since I've managed to update my blog…Aside from the fact that there is not much to tell, I've been suffering from severe neuropathy…Yah! I know I'm neurotic so add this to my list of "qualities" :) It's been almost a month that my toes and fingers are feeling so numb, as if I'm undergoing acupuncture with pain!...Since it is quite painful even to the slightest touch, I am reserving all my energy and patience for my work. So I hope that explains my loooong absence (a detailed excuse for my laziness) :)

I've been contemplating the idea of moving my blog to another site. I don't want you to be bored with all my medical (mis)adventures. Besides the whole process is quite monotonous...So, I want to write all other stuffs and put some pictures perhaps. Of course I've been to other places aside from the hospital in Quezon city, our office in Makati and our humble shambles in Pateros…I'm a lakwatsera at heart ano... bwehehe!!! But since my lazy bones are taking control of my body at this moment, making the idea into reality is quite farfetched hehehe…

My last chemo session was April 3, it was my 8th session, 4 more to go hoorrrayyy!!! As of this moment I have no idea when will be the next session is. I am currently undergoing medication so as to reverse this severe side-effect. Writing with a pen is quite hard nowadays. I've been dragging my feet to get from one place to another (my own definition of walking) I've been blessed with a job that will require me to constantly move my fingers, so I guess I'm exercising in a way. I do hope that I don't get to the point that signing my name will require tremendous amount of energy and time…

I've noticed that since January, my treatments were being delayed one way or another. Either my doctor is out of the country, or I've got an infection. It coincides with the fact that I'm not financially ready for that session…Divine intervention? :)

Anyway, below is summary of my current financial status…



For now, we are trying to raise again the financial need for my medication and we trust that He will provide...

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Overdue

Dyaaarraaannn….

Long time no hear ::) its been a month na pala since I’ve update my blog…so much has happened hindi ko alam where will I start…

Nweiz, as I’ve mentioned before I am on an evaluation phase. Natapos din yun nung feb 22. And based sa results I still need to finished the scheduled 6 more sessions…kumonti na yung pulmonary nodules tapos nag improve na daw yung lungs ko…yehey!

7th session of chemo was finshed nung March 9. That was the first time that I want to give up. I begged my hubby na umuwi na kami...My veins are so small, nahirapan na pagsabayin yung 2 dextrose, one with the medication and the other one pang flush. So ginawa since mas important yung gamot, inuna yung gamot. Sobrang lakas ng effect sa akin kaya hindi talaga ako nakakain simula Friday…hilong hilo ako…eventually my hubby convinced me to finished it. Kaya naman by Wednesday back to work na ang drama ko hehehe…

I am enjoying my work naman. Tsaka it helped me to recover. Naeexercise yung mga fingers ko…so madaling nawawala yung manhid. They call it peripheral neuropathy

Some chemotherapy drugs can damage the nerves, most commonly in your hands and feet. This can mean that your feeling or sensation changes, and you have less control over fine movements of your hands. So doing things like fastening buttons can be difficult. You may feel as though your hands and feet are padded with cotton wool or that they tingle.
Sometimes nga if I eat parang nag lock jaw ako…As if nanginginig yung buong face ko hehehe….well yakang yaka naman with God’s help!

For now, nausog yung next session ko kasi tumapat ng Good Friday. So I scheduled it na lang sa March 29. Hoepfully by that time I have enough resources. As you can see below, medyo malaki yung nagastos for evaluation. Eventually magkakaroon din yan, God always provides!



Today natapos ko din sa wakas yung backlog ko sa work ko…Wala na kaming pasok pero since mainit sa bahay, nagpunta na lang ako opis. Tsaka mag aabsent na naman ako sa Friday so para naman di ako matambakan meydo nagbawas ako ng mga pending tasks ko hehehe…malamig pa di sasakit ang ulo ko sa bahay namin hehehe…Wala na kasi kami pasok pero yung support guys meron so me ksama ako sa opis :)

In the next days baka maharap na din namin sa wakas yung mga ligpitin namin sa bahay. Simula nung lumipat kami hindi pa namin naayos and that was May 2006! Hahaha…Habang nagninilay nilay (kuno)


Hopefully…hopefully…hopefully!!!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Half of the battle

Hello hello hello…

Tomorrow, I will be back to work after resting(absent) for two days. Akala ko nga medyo matagalan akong makarecover from my last session since sobrang hilo ako at sakit ng katawan. Walang mabilhan ng gamot for pagsusuka kaya tiisin na lang, kendi ever! Kaya ko na naman (for now) I can walk a several steps, talk an hour hehehe, I can deal with LBM I guess…

By Friday I will undergo another labtest to know kung okay ako for evaluation. Then evaluation time na (read: more tests) ! yehey! I’m so excited! :) Praying and hoping for favorable results…Hope na madaling makakuha ng mga schedule kasi from what I’ve heard last week medyo fully booked and CT Scan, bone scan… Anyweiz atleast makapagrest ako hehehe… Please pray for positive results...Thank You!

I was wishing na kaya kong iupdate yung Friendster account ko, dami pictures na due for posting…kaso attack ako ng katamaran kaya wala akong ginawa kundi matulog then surf the net…di ata ako nagsasawa na magbrowse ng mga bahay…well wala namang masamang mangarap ng gising hehehe… wala lang enjoy lang ako katitingin ng mga magagandang model houses…

Nweiz eto yun financial status as of Feb 12. It covered the latest confinement which is my 6th session…grabe can’t imagine nakahalf na ako and I’m almost there! In the coming days expect na marami na namang medications and I assumed yung evaluation will be very expensive parang from what I’ve heard almost the same as each of my session…



Half of the battle is done...We are almost there…Thank God!

Monday, January 28, 2008

Half-full

(in the tune of I will Survive)

First I was afraid
I was petrified
When I saw falling hair in my hand,
and by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how I should go on
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so I’m back from outer space
I just walked in even if black spots
are in my hand, my feet and my face


I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive...


Sensya na, yan lang ang nakayanan ng powers ko na palitan sa kanta…hehehe…basta yan ang una kong naisip kantahin nung nakita ko na naghuhulugan na yung pretty hair ko…buti na lang naparebond ako kundi isa akong bruha on the loose…

Speaking of rebond, thank you sa aking suking parlorista hehehe (hindi ko na babanggitin kung saan at baka mabasa nina ma’am at sir) …regular ako pa-ahit ng eye brows (syempre hindi ako marunong at since 40 petot lang sila na mag ayos ng super kapal kong kilay) ewan ba nung nagsabog ang Lord ng buhok, ako lang ata ang gising hehehe….pinilit nila ako ipaayos ko na daw ang buhok kong ayaw magpapigil sa pag alagwa kahit sandamakmak na pony ang gamitin ko, partida nagparebond na ako nyan nung January 2007…eh since tamad talaga ako hindi ko inaalagaan yan, ayun balik s adating monster hair :) … eh since wala ako budget for that (problematic nga ako sa ipanggagamot ko ano?!) eh naikwento ko ang dahilan kumbakit…ayun naawa siguro sa akin…sinabihan ako na punta ako certain date na wala sina ma’am at sir…sila na bahala sa akin…yun lang daw ang maitutulong nila since hindi naman malaki ang sahod nila…kumbaga labor of love… at least daw maganda ang hair ko kahit na walang liguan habang nasa hospital ako hahaha :) bahala na daw yung mga ibang clients na kayang magbayad..hahaha..guilty ako pero sympre Go ako :) hindi lang naming anticipate na mag huhulugan sya!

Buti na lang talaga kundi naku! Ewan ko kung paano ako magsurvive ng hindi nagsusuklay...ayoko ng suklayin kasi dami dami natatangal..pinapatuyo ko na lang electric fan kapag me time...kapag wala sa fx na lang tutal trapik naman hahaha....

Pumapasok na kasi ulit ako ng opis...Next session ko kasi sa feb 1, 6th session ko na! Yehey! Nakahalf na ako… so due for evaluation ako after this session. Supposed to be eh ngayon Jan 28 ang session ko eh wala pa si dra tsaka sakto medyo kulang budget hehehe…baka kapusin based sa last sessions…

Masyadong magastos yung last 3 sessions ko, pansin ninyo? Ewan ba naman kasi wala daw murang rooms fully booked daw…grabe pati hospital fully booked kapag magpasko...akala ko hotels lang..ayun napunta kami sa mas mahal na room…tapos ayaw pa ng hospital na magdala ng own kumot at unan, ayun additional bayad eh ang lamig sa room at kawawa naman bantay ko kung walang magamit :( tapos dami kong medications at paulit ulit na lab tests…(remember nung nagka infection ako) bukod sa chemo drugs dami ko ding take na medications supplements… Needed yun for me to go on sa chemo tapos malabanan din mga side effects…kasi di ba sabi kahit na pinapatay ng chemo mga cancer cells at same time napapatay din mga healthy ones…So far okay naman nakakarecover ang katawan ko…

Eto yung mga supplements na tinetake ko, in case merong makabasa na same ang situation…hope this helps :

Goji Juice – have you heard of this one? Its from goji berries daw na patterned sa recipes at practices ng Himalayan people. Masarap sya compare sa Lactovitalle. Feeling ko nung simula nagtake ako nito gumana ako kumain. One of the side effects kasi ng chemo ko parang papel ang lasa ng lahat ng food sa akin. Pero nung uminom ako nito nakakain ako ng maayos which is good dahil kailangan kong kumain ng kumain. 52 Kgs na lang ako as of last timbang ko nung jan 25. tapos parang ang lakas ko unlike nung 1st session ko lantang gulay ako…di ba nga nung dec 24 super girl ako mega luto at after nun mega lakwatsa hahaha…(lakwatsera ba?!) Iniinom ko ito (mga 1 oz) 30 minutes before meal para effective absorption.

CMD - Concentrated Minerals. Hinahalo ko sa mga iniinom ko…

Glutathione – This is an anti-oxidant. Nagmanifest yung chemo drugs sa mga kamay ko, paa at face. Kaya pala napansin ko halos yung mga sunod sunod na nagchechemo magkakamukha na sila…nakawig at maiitim ang face at hands… minsan nga nalilito ako kapag pinapakilala kasi nga magkakamukha na…Minsan nga nasabihan akong maghugas ng kamay kasi akala puro grasa ang kamay ko waaahhhhh!!!! Ang itim kasi tapos parang naglalangis pa…para ngang taong grasa ano ba?! Well simula nung gumamit ako nito 1 month ago medyo nabawasan yung mga maiitim kong fingers at face…hopefully the healthy cells are generated.

Compare sa time na bago ako mag pachemo…Now nakakatulog na ako ng maayos, dati kasi im in pain talaga tabingi na nga daw ako kasi yung back ko super sakit at kirot…dinadaan na lang sa dolfenal at masahe…tapos dati konting lakad lang, hingal na…konting salita lang hingal at putol putol na…I’m better now compare nung october..so nararamdaman kong the chemo drugs are working…so let’s hope and pray na nagliitan na yang mga nodules na yan kundi man natunaw na ng lubusan…

So far nga pala ito yung financial status as of January 29:



So thank you po sa inyong lahat! Words are not enough to express how thankful we are...Indeed God make ways, we just have to trust Him, do our best, and leave everything to Him...

We can do this...we will survive!!!